Okay, look guys. I'm really sorry, alright? I know I've been rather anti-social and avoidant over the past few weeks, but I'm having some problems right now that I'm trying to work out; because, surprise-surprise, I screwed up again. But like I said, I'm working through it.

I know a lot of you think I'm avoiding you on purpose, because maybe I think I'm too good for you, or whatever. And while yes, I admit, I am a cocky and arrogant person, but believe me when I say that that is not the case.

As stereotypical as it sounds, it's not YOU, it's ME, okay? Really. I haven't had the desire to socialize that much recently because I'm afraid I might make things worse - but I'm getting a bit better. I've been a bit more talkative over the last couple of days - I even finally got the motivation to update DA.

So, in short, please don't be upset with me and my lack of responses and updates. I'm trying here guys, I've got a lot to deal with right now, and I'm trying.

Please be patient.

::LIFE::

Yeah - believe it or not, I FINALLY quit my job. After working there a little over a year now, I offically quit.

No, no, this isn't a BAD thing, or anything like that - in fact it's quite good. Those of you who know me, know that I HATED working there - I actually used to have mini-breakdowns here and there because the stress was all too much. BUT, now I don't have to worry anymore. =]

I've been talking with Kroger, and it looks like I'll be getting hired in the Floral department. Meaning in which, I'll be working in the flower shop, and Deli. The hours are better, and seeing as it's right down the street from where I live, I can walk there - thus solving the problem of transportation. So all in all, it works out super awesome for me.


::COSPLAY::

Kay, so, I've been working on a SnJ Naruto outfit - I've got the wig finished, but I can't decide if I want to do the outfit Lolita-sexi, or BeachBum-sexi. I know I was already planning on making AU-surfer cosplays. [Sasuke Uchihawaiin, and Naruto Uzumalibu]......but, meh.

As for the cosplay-to-do-list, here it is:

Shipp. Naruto [100%]

Shipp. Sasuke [95%]

Shipp. Sakura [20%] [For bigcitydreamsxx]

SnJ Naruto [30%]

SnJ Sasuke [0%]

Zack Fair [10%]

Itachi [0%] [Must have finished in time for Ohayocon]

Sora [0%]

Axel [10%]

L [80%]

Leon/Squall [0%]

Yersh!! I got myself featured!!.....And believe it or not, the pick that WAS featured, was what I considered to be my worst colored pencil drawing. =[

But, whatev, you know?

Here's the link:

[UPDATE: Here is the RIGHT link. XD]

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DAAAAAAAAAAMN!! I haven't updated in like, forever!!

Kay, so we've finished moving and everything. [Actually, we've been at our new place for like, 2 months now. XD] And my dad unfortunetly came with us. BUT, I made him cry one night. Like, I started bitching him out, because I couldn't stand his bullshit anymore, and he cried. THEN, the next day, he went out and started working again!! For the first time in 4 years!! Well....He's not really working steady or anything, he'll work one week, take a weeks off, then work another week. =/

But, whatev, ya know?

Also, we didn't end up getting the apartment I talked about in the previous entry; instead we got a townhome in the Moors. It's nice, too. Not nearly as big as the other one, but nice. =]

Now, anyway; I started school - for my last year!! I'll be graduating. And I've been thinking about going to school to get my cosmetology lisence after graduation. It'll only take about a year, if I go full time. [And as a side note, I dyed my hair again!! It's kinda of a dark blonde right now.^^]

On to another subject: believe it or not, we had a freaking wind storm yesterday. That's right, and WIND STORM. No rain, no thunder, just wind..........and it put us into a State-of-emergency. Ohio sucks SO bad, that not even Naruto would believe it. I mean, seriously. Tree's were blown over EVERYWHERE, deaths have been accumulated, and apparently, according to the news, over a billion Ohio residents are without power. Yesterday, our power went out like, 4 times, but always came back on. We're lucky. =]

The amazing thing is, we did a Naruto photoshoot yesterday, too. Right before it started to get bad outside. [Also, btw, MY NARUTO WIG IS DONE!! I DON'T HAVE TO USE MY REAL HAIR ANYMORE!!] The pictures will be uploaded soon, once their power gets back on. I haven't been able to contact Trish, or Angie, so their power is probably out.....And Angie's the one who has the camera. We'll be doing another one this Sunday, photos as well as some filming.

MOAR ABOOT KOZPLEY:
Trish and I are thinking about making a cosplay music video. I've a TON of ideas, seeing as I'm not only an actress, but a writer too. [I'm a drama-dork]

I was thinking about like, aside from the in-character MV we'll make, to do an AU MV as well. A Trilogy, of sorts. There will be 3 videos for it, following the storyline as it progesses, all of them to Muse songs. The first one "Muscle Museum", the second one "???"[under debate], and the third one "Time is Running Out". I don't want to give anything away yet, until the storyline is complete, but here's a little bit of spoils::

It will be Vamp!Sasuke, VictimFutureVamp!Naruto
It will be Horror.
It will be Gothic/Scene.
It will be bloody and tragic.
It will be a pyshological Thriller.
It will NOT have a happy ending.


And that's all for now!! I promise to make more updates!! [And photos are coming soon!!!]

Yes. SO. I'm doing a lot better now. People at work have actually been asking me why I've been so happy ["What the hell - did you get laid or something?"] which I guess really proves my theory of how apathetic and angsty I've been these past couple months. I mean, I used to always be happy/hyper - and to actually have someone tell me they're surprised that I'm smiling/lauging....well, that's kinda sad to hear really.

But whatever, I'm better now so that doesn't really matter anymore. =]

I have even MORE news that makes me happy. Now, for those of you who know, our House is under foreclosure right now, since we filed bankruptcy and while back. Whether or not we'd have to move has been under debate for a couple months now - and now it's offical. We're moving! BUT, this isn't a bad thing, cause you know why??

My mom said she's leaving my dad behind!! She's kicking him out!! FINALLY!! After all this time, I FINALLY don't have to live with that abusive, alcoholic, dead-beat bastard anymore!! FURTHERMORE, my brother is staying with our uncle up in Cinncinnatti, so that rid's us of another bastard! SO, when we move, it'll just be me and my mom - like it should be! I'm so happy and exicted about it.

But, of course my mom hasn't told my dad about any of this yet. He still doesn't even know we've got to move. She plans on telling him at the last moment [on purpose] and dropping him off at one of his drinking buddies houses. You know "Have a good life. Butt out of ours".

My mom and I went to see the apartment that we're going to get. It's REALLY nice - bigger than our house!! There's a basment, a HUGE living room, 2 bathrooms, and 3 bedrooms. There's 3 floors altogether [not including the storage/attic], and it's only a block or so away from here, so I don't have to switch school districts on my senior year.

I'm really looking forward to this - I'm so happy!! Not having to live with my dad anymore - I haven't felt this happy since I was with Shauna.

ALSO, Pride Parade is this weekend!! YAY!! It's time to whip out all my rainbows and lesbianifyed things!! I'm going to dye my hair temporarily red for the parade.